Where did July go? #writemotivation and #writemehealthy updates.


 

Like I said in the title . . . where did July go?  I can’t believe that it’s already passed, and that we’ve been in our new house for a month now!  I also can’t believe the shambles the house is still in >_<.

I have not made the progress I hoped for in any of my goals this month, and I’ve been doing a lot of thinking because of it.

When I started this blog, it was because I had a personal blog (that has since fallen by the wayside) but I had so many writing things I wanted to talk about!  And I still do – I mean, seriously, I’ve been blogging for a little over a year here and I’ve done over 400 posts.  That’s almost a post per day.  Most of them writing related.

My pitfall is this – I talk a lot about writing.  So much so, that i actually forget to write a lot.

Of course, there are other things going on – I also got caught up in the platform building side of things, and I would set writing aside to do that instead.  And reading.  I’ve done so little reading compared to what I used to do all the time . . .

And then there’s . . . the family stuff.

I can’t go into a lot, to respect the privacy that they’ve requested, so I’ll just say this – there is someone in the family who has not been a very supportive (or even nice) person who is facing a life and death situation, and is not willing to do what needs to be done to live a good-quality life.  This person is also in a position to make the lives of people I love dearly miserable, and is placing the family in a financially straining situation.

There’s another person who isn’t facing the health-situation, but is only making the situation worse by trying to be controlling and manipulative.

I am the one holding people together when everything falls apart – which has been happening on at least a weekly, sometimes daily, basis.

The clincher?

I am an introvert.  A severe introvert.  When we had a blizzard (yes, an actual blizzard – as in 3 ft of snow in 24 hours) a few years back and were snowed in for 4 days because the city of Tulsa couldn’t figure out that no, the construction crews couldn’t keep fixing the actual pavement, but they could be moving snow, I was HAPPY.  I loved the fact that I didn’t have to leave the house for 4 days!  I had my husband, my cat, plenty of food, internet access, and a snow shovel if I really needed to get anywhere.  It was like a vacation!

So when I have to reach inside and find the strength to hold my family together, it leaves me exhausted.

It’s very hard for me to write when I’m exhausted.  I can write during any other time (just ask my Wrimo’s – during our six-hour marathon write-in last November, I was juggling rude and hurtful phone calls from one of the said problem people above and STILL managed to write 10,000 words through some very intense frustration and anger) – angry, sad, bored.  But complete and utter exhaustion . . .

And complete and utter exhaustion is what I’m living in right now.  I’m getting done what I have to for survival and the minimum of sanity.

That said, I’m realizing that I have to make some changes.  Somehow, I have to be able to do my writing and still be there for my family.

I’ve completed a year of my Sunday Devotionals now.  And I’m going to take a break from them.  Between writing the devotionals, and my Sunday responsibilities at church (I am a pastor, too, for those of you who don’t know that yet), I’ve been wearing myself thin on the spiritual side too.  I need some time to recharge.  So, there will be no more devotionals through at least November, and only at Christmas time if I feel like it, because I absolutely love Christmas.  After that, I’ll re-evaluate and see where I feel God is leading in that area.

So, there’s a few steps I’m going to take:

1. Less blogging, including putting the devotionals on hiatus, and go through my list to see who I’m following blogs for, because I’m overwhelmed on that front.  I’m going to try for 2-3 blog posts a week, rather than 4-5.  I’m also going to get rid of blogs that I find myself skipping over repeatedly.

2. Get a writing schedule in place – where I sit down at the computer and write.  Not read fanfiction (yes, it’s my guilty pleasure) instead of writing, not blog instead of writing, and not talk on the phone instead of writing.  Just an hour or two a day where I turn off my phone, put on headphones, and WRITE.  There’s another Camp NaNoWriMo session in August, and my goal is to remember why writing is fun.

3. Take time to read – both my Bible, and FUN reading.  I love reading as much as I love writing, and it helps me stay excited about writing, so it’s no wonder I’ve been burned out.  And fun reading means ones I’m not being pressured to review, unless it’s a book that I really want to read anyway.

I’m still going to keep up with #writemehealthy, because that’s good for me.  We’ll see how I’m doing when the next round of #writemotivation is up.  It’s not that I don’t want to do it . . . but I think I just need a break.

So, on to my #writemotivation goal wrap-up for July . . .

1 Get devotional book drafted, start polishing.
Still pretty much at the same point that I was before, except I did find a public-domain Bible translation in modern-day English that I can use for commercial purposes.  So we’re one step closer!

2. Work on Blood of Trees, to be ready to pitch in October.
hm, yeah.  This is why I need a schedule.

3. Write at least 500 words a day on Undoing.
I’ve just decided to save this for NaNo this year.

Now, for my own #writemehealthy goals:

Spirit

1. To help my grandmother get a good back-up supply of the foods she needs to stay healthy (she’s on a pretty strict diet), since grandpa is proving unreliable in keeping up with it.
Getting this one under control!

Soul

1. To get at least one massage before the end of this round.
I need to call my friend Sarah and see if she’s still willing to come to my house and give me a massage.

2. To read at least one book about time management.
Any one have any good recommendations?

Body

1. Get in the habit of drinking 8 glasses of water a day (again).  I was very good about this, until a couple of months ago.
Yeah, still working on this.  Thank you to everyone for your helpful comments last time!  I will be attempting to implement some as soon as I find my coupon for a free box of True Lemon.  And as long as walmart has one of the other flavors.  Because I don’t like lemon in my water.

2. Do a full body cleanse at some point in this experience.

3. Get in the habit of working out at least twice a week.
but . . . . but . . . it’s so stinkin’ HOT! I don’ wanna workout . . .

 

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